"Don't Stress, Just Trust"
It has been a little while since I shared on my blog. I decided to write about something that has been affecting me and my family for the last few weeks, but first I wanna share a story.
When I left on my mission, each member of my family strategically hid a letter inside of my luggage for me to find when I unpacked at the MTC. Of course I read them immediately and cried way more than I should have, but my dad's has always held such a special place in my heart. If you know him, you know he acts like a real tough guy. If you really know him, you know he is a softy for his girls. I have a big spot for him in my heart. He wrote me something that would strengthen me and uplift me for my entire mission, and still does today. Part of that was a scripture that I continue to think about when I feel weighed down by life or incapable of doing all that is required of me. It is in Doctrine and Covenants 84:88 and it says
"I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up."
Anytime I had a particularly difficult day, I would think of that scripture and the promise that the Lord has made to each of us that He is going before us on this path, preparing the way and sending us angels to help us as we go. I know for a fact that my parents are two of my angels who have been walking with me, helping me know where to go and who to be. I have such a strong testimony that we really do have angels all around us to bear us up.
I'm sure I've talked about this before, but I get overwhelmed easier than probably everyone else. I am not good at dealing with multiple issues or things at once, even though I try really hard to take it all on anyway. I cry and stress and worry about all of the things I "should" be doing or need to be doing and most of the time, I wind up feeling like it's too much for me to handle. Especially alone. Whenever this would happen when I was younger, I have really clear memories of my dad hugging me and saying "don't stress, just trust." It was never anything profound, but that sentence runs through my mind often when my burdens and responsibilities feel like too much. My dad is a rock in my family. I think that's a requirement for a father of all girls. He has the perfect amount of tough and soft in him to raise us that way.
3 weeks ago, we found out that he has a brain tumor that will need to be operated on in the next few months. Thankfully, it is slow growing and doctors are really optimistic, but brain surgery is a really scary thing and there are so many risks involved. My dad called after they had all of the results from his MRI and I wish there was a way I could express the emotions I felt that day. I know I felt fear, I felt anger at God for allowing this to happen, I felt pain in my heart for how much this would affect all of us, I felt so overwhelmed by the last 6 months in my family, it all seemed like too much. But I also wish I could share the emotions and expressions of my dad during that call. It wasn't of fear or worry for himself, but for my mom and my sisters and me. It was of peace and confidence in our Father's plan for him. It was of complete trust in God.
Over the last few years, my dad has become even more of an example to me and my family of dedication to the Lord, of faithful study and prayer, and of love and service. I hope to one day be as unshakable and strong as my dad is, even in the face of so much uncertainty, doubt, and fear. He has a firm understanding that the Lord really is going before him, sending him angels to bear him up in all things. Even though some days it feels overwhelming and a lot to carry, I think of the words of my dad; "don't stress, just trust."
I know that Heavenly Father really does have a perfect plan. I believe in angels and miracles and I surely believe that my family and I are being blessed with them everyday. Thank you to all the angels who continually help me and us bear the burdens of life. Even though I don't know why things have to happen the way they do or why bad things happen to good people, I know one thing for sure and that is that Jesus Christ is way ahead of all of it. Amidst the darkness and fear and doubt of life, He stands in it waiting for us to stop stressing and just trust Him.
Kami
I'm sure I've talked about this before, but I get overwhelmed easier than probably everyone else. I am not good at dealing with multiple issues or things at once, even though I try really hard to take it all on anyway. I cry and stress and worry about all of the things I "should" be doing or need to be doing and most of the time, I wind up feeling like it's too much for me to handle. Especially alone. Whenever this would happen when I was younger, I have really clear memories of my dad hugging me and saying "don't stress, just trust." It was never anything profound, but that sentence runs through my mind often when my burdens and responsibilities feel like too much. My dad is a rock in my family. I think that's a requirement for a father of all girls. He has the perfect amount of tough and soft in him to raise us that way.
3 weeks ago, we found out that he has a brain tumor that will need to be operated on in the next few months. Thankfully, it is slow growing and doctors are really optimistic, but brain surgery is a really scary thing and there are so many risks involved. My dad called after they had all of the results from his MRI and I wish there was a way I could express the emotions I felt that day. I know I felt fear, I felt anger at God for allowing this to happen, I felt pain in my heart for how much this would affect all of us, I felt so overwhelmed by the last 6 months in my family, it all seemed like too much. But I also wish I could share the emotions and expressions of my dad during that call. It wasn't of fear or worry for himself, but for my mom and my sisters and me. It was of peace and confidence in our Father's plan for him. It was of complete trust in God.
Over the last few years, my dad has become even more of an example to me and my family of dedication to the Lord, of faithful study and prayer, and of love and service. I hope to one day be as unshakable and strong as my dad is, even in the face of so much uncertainty, doubt, and fear. He has a firm understanding that the Lord really is going before him, sending him angels to bear him up in all things. Even though some days it feels overwhelming and a lot to carry, I think of the words of my dad; "don't stress, just trust."
I know that Heavenly Father really does have a perfect plan. I believe in angels and miracles and I surely believe that my family and I are being blessed with them everyday. Thank you to all the angels who continually help me and us bear the burdens of life. Even though I don't know why things have to happen the way they do or why bad things happen to good people, I know one thing for sure and that is that Jesus Christ is way ahead of all of it. Amidst the darkness and fear and doubt of life, He stands in it waiting for us to stop stressing and just trust Him.
Kami
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